Choosing hurt over and over again.

My husband and I we’re pro cry it out. It isn’t for everyone. We know that. But it was what we chose to do when raising our little ones.

Then Sweet Pea came into our lives. The very first night I put her to bed she started quietly crying as she nestled her head into her pillow. She whispered “Mommy stay.” Without hesitation, I sat on the floor of her bed and held her hand until she fell asleep.

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I knew when I walked out of that room I’d have hell to pay. There would be 3 other children complaining and whining about how unfair it was that I didn’t do that with them. But here’s the thing, they went to bed in a familiar place with familiar people who loved them fierce. Their futures and their pasts were known. They were mapped out. They were planned by their parents.

It wasn’t like that for Sweet Pea. She was a toddler who didn’t have the luxury of being tucked in by her mom and she was afraid. Afraid of what tomorrow would bring. Afraid of what tomorrow would take. She was in a new home. in a new bed. with new people… for who knew how long. Her fate decided by lawyers and judges and case workers and volunteers and therapists.

So we developed a routine. I’d lay by her bed and hold her hand or pat her back or let her touch my shoulder until she was fast asleep. As she was dozing off, she’d feel around for my hand or my head just off the bed to make sure I was still there. I stayed until she was asleep because I wanted her to know, to trust, that I’d be there the when she woke up. Some nights I was in and out in 5 minutes. Other nights would drag on as she sang or talked or tossed and turned herself to sleep. I was usually tired and ready to tuck in 5 other kiddos so it was inconvenient. The days were long. I wanted in and out so I could finally have some down time. Parents need quiet time too.

Sweet Pea, she needed this.

I did that every night for the entire time she was ours. Five months. Five very long months. Six kids under one roof – not easy. I was brought to my knees more in those 5 months than I’d ever been in my whole 38 years of life.

On a rare occasion or two I would let my phone record video of her night time shenanigans to show her mom. Because it was dark it was really only sound. nonetheless, it was music to my ears and I loved sharing it with friends and family.

We moved to Vermont two months ago. Sadly, we couldn’t take Sweet Pea and her sisters with us without being labeled kidnappers.

For two months I’ve been wanting to watch the video of her. I knew watching it would break me and it was always inconvenient. I mean, who has time to sob uncontrollably and then the patience to wait for the puffy eyes to clear again?

This morning, I bundled my two oldest and sent them off into the beautiful snowy Vermont winter scene and onto the bus and off to school. I sat at my computer and opened iCloud and found the video of her. Sweet Pea. I didn’t remember exactly what was behind that 10 minute video. But I was sure it was beautiful. And I was sure it would break me into a million little pieces. But I was longing to hear her voice. I had been missing her terribly. I was missing all three of them something fierce.

I listened to it just now.

I am a mess. One red, swollen, snotty, lost mess.

It’s excruciating. My heart hurts, my head hurts, the gag reflex is almost uncontrollable. It hurts so much to think of them that even my muscles can’t control themselves. Letting your children go is hard. So very very hard. For me.

But it’s not about me, is it? It never was.

Sweet Pea gets to go home, to the mom she’s always known. To the mom and dad that changed their heaven and earth to get her back. A girl deserves a love like that and a love like ours.

So yeah…

I’d break like that all over again just to tell those girls how much I love them.

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Isn’t Grace just amazing?!

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“For this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.’ So they began to celebrate.”

Managing Multiple Pinterest Accounts

Is it just me or do any other business owners experience an unhealthy amount of anxiety when it comes to social media platforms and managing them all? I am slowly starting to organize my personal and business accounts keeping them separate is important to me. I decided to start with Pinterest.

Going from one account to another is such a hassle and a complete time-suck. After some internet research, I found two ways to easily manage all of my Pinterest accounts in one place effortlessly and seamlessly. It takes a little set up work, but after that, you’re golden. Also, it is completely possible to use both methods simultaneously, like I have done; at least until I decide which one works best for me in the long run.

Managing Multiple Pinterest Accounts? Is it just me or do any other business owners experience an unhealthy amount of anxiety when it comes to social media platforms and managing them all?

Method #1
How to Manage Multiple Pinterest Accounts (For Free)
Lovely Blog Academy keeps up with managing her various multiple Pinterest accounts in her web browser, specifically Google Chrome. In her own words,

I’ll show you how to create multiple user profiles in Chrome.  In each profile, you’ll log into the corresponding Pinterest account ONCE.  Then you can switch between them without logging in and out!  Simple.

She has very detailed instructions to do so and even includes step by step screenshots and a video. You can’t mess this up.

Keep in mind that this will only work if:

  • you’re on a desktop computer
  • you use Google Chrome as your default web browser

Major Pro: It’s completely FREE

Method #2
How to Manage Multiple Pinterest Accounts without Losing Your Mind
For those that manage multiple accounts that you don’t own (such as social media managers), Shawn Wright’s method may not work as well as Method #1 because this one requires sharing boards with your other Pinterest accounts. If they are similar this may work but I don’t imagine one business paying someone to manage their Pinterest account would be pleased sharing their content with their Social Media Manager’s other clients.

But for me, where I’d like to share content across boards since they may be relevant to my personal life or other sister businesses, it works like a charm.

Shawn also shares detailed screenshots and instructions so following along is easy. You will basically be sharing your Pinterest boards between accounts.

Keep in mind:

  • You need a unique email for each account. To make it simple you can get multiple emails and then forward back to your main email address.
  • Designate one Pinterest account as your master. For me it’s my personal account.
  • Sign in to the account that you want to share boards. In other words, you want access to these boards on your master account.

 

Sometimes adults run away too. And that’s perfectly ok.

This is my favorite season of the year. I love Fall and Christmas. But just as weather patterns have seasons, so do we as moms, sisters, friends, and women. I’ve been through seasons of busyness, waiting, hustling, and intention. For some time, I’ve been feeling the call to a season of stillness and rest.

This Thanksgiving, my family and I moved to Vermont. If I was being honest with myself, I’d say we ran away. We ran away from the distractions, the noise, the busy-ness. I try to live my life guided by faith, and I prayed for clarity for some time as I felt the nudge into this season. Just as God has promised, he answered me, with an unmistakable clarity. He told me it was time to rest, to pause, to reflect; and guided by our faith, we made the scary and radical decision to leave our hometown, our dear friends and our families to a place we had never visited. We didn’t stop to try to understand the calling, we put our faith ahead of our fear and we answered the call.

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As you can imagine, this came as quite a surprise for everyone we knew and loved. We didn’t even have answers ourselves to really put into words what had been placed on our hearts.

I want to assure you that we are well. Nothing happened that caused us to make this decision other than the small whisper to “be still”. We made the decision to move and then everything happened at lightning speed. I’m sure our decision left many with uncertainty and concern for us. In less than 5 weeks we had our home rented and an old farmhouse with generations of love having lived in it, found us in a small little town called Charlotte. God has been all over this move showing us clarity in times of doubt and fear.

I don’t know what the next season will call for, or how long this season will last. But I do know that when we ask, He provides.

We’re enjoying the days in Vermont laying low and taking in the sights and beauty all around us. It truly is breathtaking! And it really does look like a scene straight our of a Hallmark movie.

Much love,
~V

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