Dear Cole,
I was reading a book last night, Hannah’s Hope: Seeking God’s Heart in the Midst of Infertility, Miscarriage, and Adoption Loss. I was highlighting sentences that spoke to me. You came in to the room, asked me to color some more and I explained to you that I was not coloring, I was highlighting.
“Why?” you asked.
I told you that I would only highlight words that spoke to my heart, that had meaning for me.
“Why?” you asked again.
“Because Mommy wants a baby.”
“I want a baby too.” {Insert pouty sad face here}
“I know baby. That is something you have to pray to God for. Just like I am doing.”
So you put your hands together, placed them in front of your face, looked down and said “I want a baby God.”
It was precious. I am starting to see you understand about Him. To speak to Him. To pray. I wish you knew how comforting that is. I am so proud of you and the little man you are becoming. You’re growing way too quick for my likes, but I won’t hold you back because I am seeing that you have a greater purpose. I don’t know what it is. I am not meant to know. Neither are you. But you are most definitely on the right track my love.
I AM SO PROUD OF YOU!
Love,
Mommy