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So I “Wait”

It’s in our nature to want to understand and control everything. I know that. But I have to keep reminding myself to have faith and to leave things in greater hands. I forget that I am not alone in this journey. I found this poem on another blog some time ago and I wanted to share it with you.

by Russell Kelfer

Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried;
Quietly, patiently, lovingly, God replied.
I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate . . .
And the Master so gently said, “Wait.”

“Wait? you say wait?” my indignant reply.
“Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!
Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard?
By faith I have asked, and I’m claiming your Word.

“My future and all to which I relate
Hangs in the balance, and you tell me to wait?
I’m needing a ‘yes’, a go-ahead sign,
Or even a ‘no’ to which I can resign.

“You promised, dear Lord, that if we believe,
We need but to ask, and we shall receive.
And Lord I’ve been asking, and this is my cry:
I’m weary of asking! I need a reply.”

Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate,
As my Master replied again, “Wait.”
So I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut,
And grumbled to God, “So, I’m waiting for what?”

He seemed then to kneel, and His eyes met with mine . . .
and He tenderly said, “I could give you a sign.
I could shake the heavens and darken the sun.
I could raise the dead and cause mountains to run.

“I could give all you seek and pleased you would be.
You’d have what you want, but you wouldn’t know Me.
You’d not know the depth of my love for each saint.
You’d not know the power that I give to the faint.

“You’d not learn to see through clouds of despair;
You’d not learn to trust just by knowing I’m there.
You’d not know the joy of resting in Me
When darkness and silence are all you can see.

“You’d never experience the fullness of love
When the peace of My spirit descends like a dove.
You would know that I give, and I save, for a start,
But you’d not know the depth of the beat of My heart.

“The glow of my comfort late into the night,
The faith that I give when you walk without sight.
The depth that’s beyond getting just what you ask
From an infinite God who makes what you have last.

“You’d never know, should your pain quickly flee,
What it means that My grace is sufficient for thee.
Yes, your dearest dreams overnight would come true,
But, oh, the loss, if you missed what I’m doing in you.

“So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see
That the greatest of gifts is to truly know me.
And though oft My answers seem terribly late,
My most precious answer of all is still . . . Wait.”

1 Comment

  1. Hey Vann…it’s Little Sis. I just want to remind you of a little conversation we had over 2 years ago when you were trying to conceive before good ol’ Cole came along. I reassured you once then, and I will do it again now…EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON. GOD HAS A SPECIAL PLAN FOR ALL OF US.
    And just maybe, your second child just isn’t ready to be conceived. Because if possibly “she” needs to be a bit younger because if she arrives too soon she may not make try-outs and be able to root Cole on as she cheers at one of his football games (sorry Will; or baseball or basketball). Or if possibly “he” then maybe God thinks Cole needs to learn an invaluable lesson before baby number 2 is born and hasn’t found the right path for that “lesson.”
    I don’t really know what I’m babbling on about; but in the end, what I am trying to say…IS JUST HAVE FAITH IN GOD! AND FATE! GOD LOVES YOU AND WOULD WANT NOTHING MORE THAN FOR YOU TO BE HAPPY. Of course, just on his terms.
    I love you and I know God will give you what you’ve been praying and waiting for; he’s just going to give it to you when he knows it is right! There could be so many reasons why it hasn’t happened yet; but only God knows!

    Praying for you,
    Little Sis

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